The first time...

*While I prefer not to use euphemisms and just "tell it like it is", I feel it necessary to be slightly vague here, in an attempt to maintain a tiny amount of privacy where family is concerned. My apologies if I seem to be avoiding the issue.*

I've thought about doing this for a while now - writing a blog. Sometimes there are events in my life I just feel like spouting off about; some positive, some not so great. Sadly, the thing that spurred me to make this my first ever blog posting is one of the latter. 

Almost exactly a year ago, I found out something about a family member that made me stop in my tracks. I literally had to sit down to process it. My baby brother has a hard core substance abuse problem. To my knowledge, it's been going on for about 10 years now, and progressed into something I never thought would happen to someone I love. 

Let me digress about 28 and a half years. When I was almost 10, my parents told my sisters and me that we were "getting a new baby brother." We were thrilled. We pooled all our hard saved money and trotted off to the local store to buy a toy for our new sibling. My parents, two sisters and I made the trip together to wherever it was that babies were bestowed upon lucky adoptive families. I remember how excited we were to have a new baby. We lavished him with love and attention. 

Years passed, he grew up (as did we all) and now we're all adults. In my eyes he will always be that cherubic baby boy I first called my brother so many years ago.

Fast forward to January 2008. After nearly a year of wondering, speculation and sporadic, uncomfortable visits, the truth comes out. My brother has been using and selling drugs. I tell myself, "At least it's not IV drugs. At least that's something." He makes several failed attempts at rehab. He fills my parents' heads alternately with hope and grief; heartache over his choices, and relief that he's not dead in a ditch somewhere. And then the final straw - he is arrested on drug trafficking charges.  

Jump forward once again, to March 2009. Over a year after the original charges were laid, and after many delays and rescheduled court dates,  my baby brother will finally face a judge to pay for his misdeeds. It's likely he will be spending a couple of years in jail. 

He still has the stuffed dog that we,"the sisters", as he christened us in his childhood, gave him on that very first time we met and became a family. I don't think it will be going with him. My heart certainly will.

Just An Alberta Girl

This piece of heaven that I've found

Rocky Mountains and black fertile ground

Everything I need beneath that big blue sky

Doesn't matter where I go

This place will always be my home

Yeah I've been Alberta Bound for all my life

And I'll be Alberta Bound until I die

Paul Brandt wrote and sings those lyrics - and it describes perfectly, how I feel about living here. I'm an import. Born in the US and came to Canada when I was about three and a half. Cross border love story really; American father comes to attend a school in Canada, meets my Canadian mother at the school, sparks fly, they fall in love and get married. After living in the US for a few years, they come back to Canada and we've been here ever since.

I met my husband in a wee little northern Alberta town, about 21 years ago (gulp - 21 years?!) and we were married in 1990. A year later, our oldest son joined the family and 17 months after that, yet another son joined our little family. Finally, in the early part of the summer of 1994, our family was completed with the arrival of our youngest, a daughter.

Yep. If you're doing the math, that makes me the mother of 3 teenagers. All at the same time. In the same house. Still alive. No one's bald (yet). It may however, explain the obsession I have with a certain coffee chain's coffee.

I'm not exactly new to blogging. I wrote on an intensely private personal blog last year, when one of my children was experiencing some health issues and I needed an outlet, somewhere to let out the thoughts swirling around in my head. It was cathartic, to say the least and it helped me get through that time without completely losing my mind.

I'm hoping that blogging with "company" helps me keep up with writing a little here and there. I've always enjoyed it, but sometimes the follow through is a little lacking. So I'm hoping that being here amongst all of you, is the incentive I need to get fingers to keyboard, to share a little of my life.

Thanks for the invite, Britt! And hello to everyone else!